Next Year

Well, there has been a lot of talk in this house about next year. Next year is internship and I'm not looking forward to it at all!! When we moved here in May/June of 2008 I thought we were going to be here for 4 years well thanks to a bunch of seniors ganging up on us at a meeting it doesn't look like that is going to happen. It looks like we're going to be moving for internship, am I happy about it, not at all - do I have a choice, nope doesn't look like it. Yes it would be nice to get away from here for a year (certain people really drive me crazy) but yet when neither I or the kids have any self confidence it's hard. It was a big adjustment for the 3 of us to move here and then to move somewhere else for a year and then come back, I think it's going to be really hard. I told Alex when he started this I would support him so I guess at this point I'm just stuck. It's only a year right, how bad can it really be - well let's see if it's not within driving distance of my parents & sister it can be REALLY BAD!!!! I won't fly so I really want to be within driving distance of them, and then when we move for good who knows where that will be to, I'm not as open as Alex about where we move but who knows maybe that will be like internship too and I won't have much say in that too it might depend on where Alex can even get a job.

Lately I have noticed every house that is for sale by us and keep thinking when we moved a few years ago I said I never wanted to own a house again and lately that's all I want, I want to have a house and be able to paint and turn the radio up loud and have our own yard. Maybe someday.

I've gotten back into writing poetry some and that seems to be one of the best ways for me to express my feelings - though this is a pretty close second. I have some of them posted on here as I write them I'll keep posting them. I've started doing more and more crafty projects too and lately my favorite thing is photography, I love to take pictures of flowers & trees especially.

Saturday Alex and I are going on a date because we have an awesome friend that is going to watch the kids for us. I'm looking forward to getting away from the kids but I have this feeling we'll wind up on the same topic that we're always on: internship, I'm tired of talking about it. It's going to happen one way or another so why keep dwelling on it. Though I think that is how I've lost some weight, I've been having stomach issues ever since the topic of us moving has come up so who knows maybe between the talks of internship & wii fit I'll lose the 5 pounds I want to lose.

TTFN!