It's been a long time since I've written anything. Alex updated his blog though and it made me want to update mine as well. I forgot how good this can be to get things off my mind.
A lot has happened since my last post. We did get Chagrin Falls and are now living here. I'm so glad we moved, I absolutely love it here. The only bad part is I've fallen in love with it so much I don't want to go back to Columbus.
The church here is great, everyone is so nice & welcoming. The schools are great, the area is beautiful. I've already decided that I want to live in NE Ohio.
Well the promise that I made to myself before leaving Columbus has already been broken. I had promised myself that I would not get to know anyone or make any friends because I hate always having to say goodbye. Well I've made some really good friends here so that is making it hard to think about next summer. I can't believe 3 months have already gone by. I really wish there was a way to slow down time.
I've also found myself thinking A LOT about Todd & Jamie. To the point I keep having their sending service going through my head with me sitting in the pew bawling. I'm wondering if this is why I'm trying to convince myself that Rob doesn't like me. Is it because he reminds me of Todd and I don't want to get to know him? Why does my mind think like this - I'm thinking it's because I've lost all my good friends all my life.
Alex is so good to me, he never gets upset when I get depressed or anything he just tries to make it better. I really got lucky to have him in my life. He even puts up with my mood swings with Religion. Which I've been majorly questioning again. Life just seemed so much easier without religion in it. It just seems like if I try to figure it out it just confuses me more and makes me wonder why I'm on earth. There are definitely days I'm ready to throw in the towel on religion but something keeps making me go on Sundays, maybe it's the people - it is the one day a week I'm able to actually see someone that does not live in this house.
Well, that's a little bit for now, maybe I'll write again later.
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