One of those days

So today is one of those days that crawling in a hole and never coming out of sounds like the best option. Yesterday was our geocache event and alex got there pretty close to when it started so I was thankful for that. While all the teams were looking for there different stages alex and I were wandering around to offer help if it was needed. I got home last night and was exhausted. I also felt very alone. The more I think about it the more I realize that alex barely talked to me yesterday other than when he told me I could carry a bunch of stuff home and he would finish locking up and drive the car home so I took the hint and left he obviously didn't want me around. I tried to ask him about the conference thing he went to and I got the answer I always get for anything related to church - it was good.  I know a lot of stuff that goes on at church he can't share with me - I worked in the church office I know there is a lot of that - but what about stuff pertaining to the reason we're here his internship couldn't tell you anything about it.  I really feel like the more he's getting involved with stuff at church the more I'm being pushed aside.  Which if that's how it's going to be then fine I'm up for it I can push him aside just as well.  Will it be healthy for our relationship nope but obviously right now his relationship with religion is the priority - could also be why I'm maybe feeling resentful toward religion and don't really want it in my life.  Hmm just made that connection.  Someone gave us tickets to go to a movie & dinner today I have no desire to go, he did finally ask me if I wanted to go I said no because I really don't like the theater they are always way too loud for me - I said one of Kiefer's friends could use my ticket.  Hope whoever bought the tickets for us understands.