After watching this little baby for a while he decided it was time to lay down to take a nap. There are times in my life (and probably yours) that I just want to quit trying to stand by my faith and just flop down. In the past week though I have found that the stronger I am at standing (by my faith) the happier I am. I've learned to really take time to look around and discover and enjoy all of God's miracles.On Sunday during Adventures in Faith Pastor Patti came in and asked for our forgiveness for her not teaching the class that day. It was a special day for her and Pastor Jeff as their daughter was taking her first communion. Both of our children have already had this experience and we quite often get a look of shock or disbelief. There are often times that the Communion Assistant tries to pass by my two, but they have learned to be patient and Alex or I will give the Assistant the approving nod. At Grace where we currently are they start communion classes at the third grade level, but at our home church it was basically when the child starts asking. Kief was the first one to start asking about it and for a while I think he understood it and got more meaning out if it than I did.
Anyway, that is not really where I was planning to go when I started talking about Adventures of Faith. Seems how Pastor Patti was not teaching our class we watched a video, it was from a video series that I had never seen before, but I really enjoyed it and it really made you think. The one we watched was called "Today" and the main point that I got out of it was to quit living in the past and focus on the hear and now - and he even said if you need to grieve then grieve. That one really stuck with me out of all the different things he said. I know I have had a hard time excepting the fact that my grandparents are gone. This may seem strange to come who have known me for a while because it is not something I ever talk about. My Grandpa died when I was in third grade and I have very fond and vivid memories of him. He was a diabetic and had numerous soars on his feet - I remember helping me Grandma put new bandages on them every night (that I was there). Another memory I have is attending church with him.
I have not been in that church probably since third grade (or maybe before) but I can still see the high back pews with red velvety upholstery and the balcony, where the Pastors office is, and where the door in the ceiling was that had the drop down ladder to get the paper products. I remember helping to clean the church with him, and now my parents clean our home church and I hope my kids will have some of those same special memories from when they are helping them that I do.My Grandma passed away when I was in my second year at CMU - that was very hard for me to deal with. I have a lot of neat memories of her as well and I think about her often, especially when I get flustered with the kids and find myself saying "Honestly" - that was a phrase you heard often from her.
Now that I took a nice trip down memory lane I'll go back to the video. With my faith being so strong this past week and feeling as though the Holy Spirit is with me - i feel I am ready to accept this fact and live in the now. Yet I feel part of the reason I want to renew my vow's with my Best Friend and Love of My Life is to make my Grandpa happy and approve. I can still hear my Mom saying to me "your Grandpa would be disappointed in you" when I told her that God's name would not be in our wedding ceremony because I did not believe. Talk about doing a complete turn around now I'm constantly thinking about God and looking at the beauty and new life he has given.
Have fun and live each day to it's fullest. Thanks be to God.
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