It is Me

So yesterday before Alex read my blog he said yup it's just you.  He didn't mean it in a bad way he was just referring to the fact that I will not spend money on myself.  We had been discussing the fact that I need new shoes, the one black pair I have that I like to wear I bought shortly after Emali was born and they are really starting to hurt my feet, and the fact that I need a haircut, and I'd really like to get some new sweaters because most of mine are too small and I've been wearing the same ones for about five years now.  I told him I could only do one of those things and he said no you can do them all.  It won't happen I can guarantee it.  I feel too guilty if I spend any money on myself.  I did decide to make a hair appt which I'm excited about because my hair is to that length that it's starting to give me headaches again.  Which means I won't get shoes or sweaters and if I do I will feel way too guilty about it.  I think it's a mom thing not a me thing - Mom's always put themselves last.