now and to say it's not what I had expected is a huge understatement.
When we decided to move here I was very excited well, the excitement
faded fast. It soon became clear that during the school semester I
would basically become a single parent because alex would spend his
nights doing large amounts of reading and homework. Yes I realized he
would have homework but I did not realize that would mean tending to
the kids everynight until thier bedtime.
faded fast. It soon became clear that during the school semester I
would basically become a single parent because alex would spend his
nights doing large amounts of reading and homework. Yes I realized he
would have homework but I did not realize that would mean tending to
the kids everynight until thier bedtime.
The seminary is horrible in letting spouses know what is happening too
they expect the student to pass the information along, what they don't
realize is you don't see each other.
they expect the student to pass the information along, what they don't
realize is you don't see each other.
Then there is internship which still makes my blood boil. They expect
you to uproot your family and move here and then just as you kids are
getting accepted at school (Bexley is horrible at welcoming new people
especially once they find out where you live, I have made friends with
s few of the moms but not many) then they MAKE you move away for a
year to turn around and move back for a year. Well I am sorry one move
is hard enough on a child but 3 in 4 years come can we be a little
realistic please. Yes I am still ticked about the whole thing I don't
understand why it's always the same person sacrificing in a
relationship. I guess the good thing is I think our marriage is strong
enough to overcome the obstacles.
you to uproot your family and move here and then just as you kids are
getting accepted at school (Bexley is horrible at welcoming new people
especially once they find out where you live, I have made friends with
s few of the moms but not many) then they MAKE you move away for a
year to turn around and move back for a year. Well I am sorry one move
is hard enough on a child but 3 in 4 years come can we be a little
realistic please. Yes I am still ticked about the whole thing I don't
understand why it's always the same person sacrificing in a
relationship. I guess the good thing is I think our marriage is strong
enough to overcome the obstacles.
Then there is church, I was thinking oh we'll be at seminary I'll get
to learn things about the Bible seems how I know squat. Well, just
like everything else that isn't happening either, I don't even get to
go church which has resulted in me pretty much completely losing all
faith & having no desire to go to church. Yes I could go to church
with alex but I don't feel it's worth it the church he has to go to is
pretty much against everything I believe & there is a church that we
could walk to but I have no respect for the pastor.
to learn things about the Bible seems how I know squat. Well, just
like everything else that isn't happening either, I don't even get to
go church which has resulted in me pretty much completely losing all
faith & having no desire to go to church. Yes I could go to church
with alex but I don't feel it's worth it the church he has to go to is
pretty much against everything I believe & there is a church that we
could walk to but I have no respect for the pastor.
I don't know if it's the fact that I haven't seen the sun in at least
a month, or that I feel very alone lately, or that I've just been
keeping everything too bottled up but this blog seemed to turn into a
major bitchfest. I know that I struggle in the winter with being
alone & depression but lately I just don't feel myself.
a month, or that I feel very alone lately, or that I've just been
keeping everything too bottled up but this blog seemed to turn into a
major bitchfest. I know that I struggle in the winter with being
alone & depression but lately I just don't feel myself.
2 comments:
I feel your pain. The Seminary does not include the spouses and does not support them in any way. i miss my family back home terribly. I was homesick for the first year. Internship is better because at least you see your husband more. Also, you can get involved as much as you want with his church. Can't you restrict to Columbus instead of moving again? I'm here if you need me,,,I'm a great listener. Wanetta
I am not quite sure what to say other than I would not do anything to intentionally hurt us or our family. I Love you with all my heart. I will have to admit that when you told me about that position at the zoo I was intrigued by it, but not sure what to make of it.
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