Music therapy for great acting

Music. 
I listened to music today for the first time in quite a while (maybe since before Christmas) and I really forgot how therapeutic it can be. Granted the songs I've been listening to may be just as depressing as my mood but oh well, I like them. I'm really hooked on a song by Pink called f**kin perfect. I've probably listened to it at least a dozen times today.  I also worked in my craft room for the first time since before Kiefer's birthday - it was nice and I like how my project is going. 
Well yesterday I think I did my biggest acting job yet, I'm really becoming a pro (most people don't know I'm depressed). I went to dinner with alex and a lady from trinity whom I really don't like.  I found her to be very rude - for one she asked how old I was, I'm sorry but I think that's one of the eldest questions you can ask. Especially for someone who doesn't celebrate birthdays. Then she had the nerve to tell me I had dark circles under my eyes. Well I certainly didn't dare tell her they were from crying because I certainly wasn't going there with her!  
The person I've been talking probably thought I was an extra crazy nutcase yesterday when they got frantic text messages from me when I was trying to decide if I even wanted to go to dinner. It basically came down to the fact that I really didn't have a choice even though alex was giving me a choice. 
After I got home last night I was so sick - I really wanted to curl up and die my stomach hurt so bad and I figure it was because I was such a whirlwind of emotions. Today my stomach has been a little queasy but I've kept food in it. It was kind of nice that the president was on tv because I went to bed, unfortunately I didn't sleep well though. Then this morning on Facebook I saw some information that really made me feel unwanted. I'm really glad I do not celebrate birthdays though or this years might have been the worst. 
Tonight my husband made my day though because I had been talking about getting a netbook well after he got our taxes filed (only thing he does not procrastinate at) Monday night he thought I might want an actual laptop instead so when our return comes I'm headed to the apple store. I'm soooooooo excited!  Yup simple life not much excites me.